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The disturbing world of Elon Musk’s ‘Eating Disorder Twitter’
You thought #thinspo was bad? Get ready for this
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If you are a woman, you’ve probably had a deep loathing of your body size at some point. I’ve definitely lived off 300 calories a day until I literally couldn’t, not eaten for a whole week, and refused to go on dates or even outside until I got thinner. I’ve definitely drank way too much coffee to suppress my diet and developed dangerously repetitive dietary habits and methods and techniques of hiding how little I was eating. I definitely got so bad I’d weigh myself every morning and evening, and refuse to eat anything I couldn’t calorie count to the calorie. I had my sister in tears over how thin I was getting and I still couldn’t bear to eat more than 1300 calories a day, because that was my BMR. It’s taken genuinely over a decade to even be ok buying a size ‘medium’ instead of ‘small’ without hating myself, despite being taller than most women. Even now, if a man rejects me, I immediately think it is about my body size, not the plethora of incompatibilities we could have had. And I’m a fairly normal looking, standard woman. For many of us, being fat is worse than being very sick or dangerously thin.
