Why I’m not dating right now: and why I’m still single, two years on
I’m single: and honestly, that’s a good right now
For almost all my adult life, as in, 8/10 years, I have been in a committed, long term relationship with people I expected to marry. Being ‘single and dating’ has, overwhelmingly, lasted for a month or two. I used to think this was a good thing: until I realised I had absolutely no understanding of who I really was, or what I really wanted in a partner. And, even worse, I was looking for someone who was just my partner, as opposed to someone I really loved and wanted in my life. Now, at 28, for the first time, not only am I single, but I am not looking for someone. I am not interested. Closed shop. We’re good.
Don’t worry: no big horror story. The men I’ve been on dates with are nice. Good. Fine. I secretly felt that they were a bit whiny, entitled, and needy in places, but honestly, that says as much about me and how much I liked them, as it does them. But I realised I was dreading replying. I was bored by the idea of getting back to them for yet more small talk about work and weekends. I definitely didn’t want to go on a date or make any plans. Men who were exactly what I wanted on paper were barely enough to supress a sigh of annoyance when I had to get back to them about something. Even men I’d been obsessed with a…
